Sometimes I feel like life gets in the way of our enjoyment for each moment and even each wonderful thing and people in our lives.
For some reason lately I have been so focused on the unimportant things in life - cleaning, cooking, errands, etc. I was panicking about all the things that I want to have done before Nathan comes, realizing I only have about four months left before he arrives. Somehow I think I was pretending I wasn't pregnant, wrapped up in being a mommy and taking care of the house. Lucas hasn't been sleeping and we've been throwing all our energy into working with him on that, so I've been up late and up early, doing cleaning and projects to all hours of the night. When I was tired I just pushed myself more to get more done. Not too smart.... considering that yeah, I am actually pregnant.
This week we had a bit of a scare that ended up with an ultrasound and the possibility of something called "funneling of the cervix". I won't go into more detail on that here, but until next week's doctor appointment I am on orders to not pick up a broom or mop, and to take it as easy as possible. So I have been sitting.... resting..... watching TV or reading during Lucas' naps. And let me tell you it is HARD! and boring! I can't stand sitting around, but I am doing it because I need to remember that I'm pregnant and need to take care of this little boy. I don't want anything to happen to him.
So, my new philosophy.... I don't care if things are messy. I don't care if I don't get all my projects done. I just want to enjoy the rest of this pregnancy, have a really fun summer with Lucas, spend time with my friends and family, and take time to take lots of pictures, write, and enjoy life. We'll see how long I can do this! :-)
I am so excited for this long weekend ahead. We are (hopefully) finally going to get our master bathroom sink/counter installed after living without one for a year, and hopefully get some fun time with friends and family as well. And yes, I will be doing a lot of resting...
Happy long weekend everyone!